Okay, so this might be uninteresting and bland, but I need a place to put down my thought and this is the only outlet that nobody that's close to me really reads.
In fact, no one reads it, so it's a good place.
I just need to be honest.
I moved far away for school.
Away from my boyfriend, my best friend, and my family.
Now, it wouldn't be bad if I wasn't in love, if I got along with people here, if I could explore by myself.
But as it is, I'm skimming the line of engagement, I'm quite awkward when it comes to making friends, I don't connect as easily with people as everyone else, and it's not safe to walk alone.
I miss sex. I miss cuddling, watching movies, being able to call, having my hand held, falling asleep in his arms, and walking at night.
I miss my niece and nephew, who are growing up too fast.
I hate having roommates that I don't feel 100% comfortable with.
Now I have to decide between staying here for the good education and having him move here and be stuck for the next 3 years, going to school out West so we can get a place and both be happy geographically, but I lose a bit of educational credibility, or going to school close to home and living together there, where we're both happy and close to family, but longing to be out West.
It's a crappy decision. I don't want this to be my last year here but I need to find a way to be happy all around.
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